Again, my girl Crystal St.Marie Lewis comes through for me! Crystal lives in Washington, D.C. and is in seminary. She’s very eloquent about her beliefs and dis-beliefs. I visit her blog almost every day. She has some wonderful insights and I value what she has to say. She helps me feel as if I’m not alone. You see, I KNOW I’m not alone (though it often feels that way). I have read so much from so many other folks that have gone through a theological deconstruction similar to what I went through…to know that I’m not alone.
SO, folks. Something is going on. And no, it’s not SATAN or END TIME deception .
*TANGENT: If that is what you think (Satan and End Times), please educate yourself about these myths. It is appalling that people have very little knowledge about the historical origins of the religion (ie: Christianity) they claim to KNOW is TRUE. Listen, you can say you have faith that it’s true, or you believe it to be true, but bottom line is this…you CANNOT say it is true because it has not been proven…not to mention all the holes that can be shot through it. There are folks in other religions who believe just as strongly that what THEY believe is the truth. So who is right? (if you say you are it becomes laughable). Why can’t we all say we don’t know for sure and it’s a big mystery…? That’s so much more palatable than insisting that you (and Christianity) has the only truth. And by the way? Using the bible to say the bible is true is circular and extremely faulty reasoning. Doesn’t cut it. Not with me and not with most everybody else.
No. What is going on is this: We live in an era in which it is difficult to keep our heads buried in the proverbial sand. We in the west have no excuse for allowing superstition and ignorance to rule our lives. All it takes is some investigation. Perhaps reading a book by someone you might not agree with (hey, if you only read those you agree with then your mind grows smaller and smaller and I’m pretty sure it shrivels up like a teensy raisin). 
Seriously, look for books outside of your typical fare. Stretch yourself. Gain some insight into the way others think and believe. It’s a big world and there are many different thoughts about Christianity. Think critically!! I gave myself a theological education over the course of 3 years, and you can too. I’ll give you a list of books to read, if you’d like.
Again, in my defense, there are MANY others who have questioned and are questioning EVERYTHING they were indoctrinated with. Crystal is just one of the many that I’ve come across. She’s clarified her position on hell, and it’s a worthwhile read. I encourage you to read it. Maybe it will set you free. I know it has set me free! 
